Friday, July 18, 2014

tell me

Yesterday after work I decided to take the littles to the pool. During that time, I found myself telling myself that I needed to write more. To start writing in my little notebook that i carry around. Write anything and everything that pops into my mind, that captures my attention. So as I sat here telling myself that of course my mind wanders. The last few weeks Ive been hit with a lot of "moments of clarity" if you will or "harsh realities" if we wanna be politically correct. The biggest one...my littles are growing daily and theres no slowing that down or stopping it. Makes me super sad thinking about it. Thinking that one day they will be my age, have their own friends, own drama and just know that they will eventually have a life away from me. Sad sad truth :( So in realizing that, I knew that I needed to spend more quality time with them. More 1 on 1 time with each of them. Khalese is 10 guys! About to go into 5th grade, one year away from middle-school. It boggles my mind to think that. Shes at this age where shes slowly trying to find her voice, find herself as a person. So many changes going on inside of her and I just dont want her to feel alone during that time.
Another thing Ive realized...Im turning 30 in 7 months! 30 people! I keep reading articles about how being 30 is a great age, how we've experienced so much and its all true! This girl cant party like she used to and to be honest if I had to choose between an all night binge party or dinner and wine with friends trust me a good ole hearty steak will win every time. Ive come a long way from my crazy party days. Im a mom and a young woman who is still trying to figure out what to do with my life. Im still young at heart and that will never change but a lot has. My goals are so different at this point of my life. So with that said, I wrote down 5 goals that I plan to get done with before the big #30!

Goal number 1: Write more! Wev've already covered this a bit

Number 2: Spend as much time as humanly possible with the littles. Before I know it, these kids are going to be teenagers with raging hormones and then leaving for college and I cant sit here constantly being afraid of that day to come. Instead Im going to enjoy every minute I have with them because lets be honest, with as crazy as our world is becoming, who knows how long any of us will be here.

Number 3: Exercise Yes I know, Ive said this before. And Im not saying anything other than I really plan on trying to get better at being active.

Number 4: Get passport Ive actually thought about doing this for a few years. Horrible that none of us actually has one so I am determined to get us one :)

Number 5: Fly away! For my big #30 I want to fly away. And not to just like Florida no no no I mean fly away to a place where that passport will be needed!

So thats where my writing has taken me so far...so tell me what are your goals?

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